It's not as bad as unrelenting pain, but unrelenting BOREDOM is nearly as difficult to live with. I spend nearly 24 hrs a day in an electric recliner. I don't bother to go to my room and bed anymore, I sleep about the same in either place as much as I actually sleep, which is not much. I sit reclined with earplugs in and a mask over my eyes. I am interested in nothing, I can't even find vids I want to watch though I have access 1000s of titles.
Another 2 weeks and I should start work on my fake leg again. Still waiting for a Statement of Benefits from SS to continue at the process toward moving out. I don't see that either one will make my life any more interesting. The only improvement I forsee is better food.
I have come to realize this outcome has been inevitable for me since graduating HS. I have gone through life since not once being at all happy. There never even was a possibility I might be happy at some future date. Just misery compounded on misery. I will be miserable until the day I die. It can't come soon enough.
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